So I have an opportunity to go fulltime at the day job I work at. Which I totally need to do.... but they actually offered me two jobs... one is more.. ummm specific and demanding and one is the job I was thinking of going for. The demanding job requires school and training and has an unpredictable schedule. But I could probably make more money and move up to a manager position in a few years.

Now, I had originally joined the company with the thought of becoming fulltime and doing the demanding specific job and working my way up to management at some point.

That was before I found out I have rp... and now I kind of want to throw my weight behind having kids and painting. I have sold paintings, but never as a full time job. Painting is a passion that sometimes makes me money, but which I have never relied upon.

I just don't know which to do. I know at least in the next two to three years I need a normal job while we have a baby or two and my husbamd finishes his master's, program. We need the stable paycheck and health insurance. . But after he is working again I would have a bit more flexibility.

It seems like a waste to go through all the schooling and training for the demanding specific job if I just end up leaving the company in a few years or at least dropping back down to a part time capacity to raise kids and paint more.

The thing that makes it a bit hard is I definitely feel set up to succeed and excell in the company. I think the owner already considers me a good candidate for management some day.. I just don't know if I care about that anymore.

When I had my whole life of sight ahead of me, I just always had painting.. I knew I could do a lot more of it when I was older. I figured a couple decade of focusing on making money for kids was a good plan. Painting would be there later.

But now those couple of decades feel precious. Painting might not be there at the end of them. Now there is this need to paint NOW.

But I will still need to make money. So if I want to paint instead of climb the corporate ladder I have to start actively selling my paintings. Which is a daunting and uncertain prospect. If my husband is working, we could probably be fine if I was bringing in a relatively small amount of income.. but I would still need to bring in something. I might ask r/painting about that.. but the professionals over there are terrifying.

I don't know why I am asking exactly. I just like you guys best. What would you do? Climb the corporate ladder to a higher earning bracket and assured monetary security? Or do what you love while you still can at the risk of financial uncertainty?