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I was a miracle baby , i should be dead, now what ? (self.Blind)
submitted by Goats247
I have had a tragic and miraculous life, I was born three and a half months premature in 1982, I weighed one and a half pounds
I had open heart surgery at 1 month old, was in the hospital for over a year
I was raised in a family unit with a twin brother and a mother who was a narcissist.
After 30 years of Hell, I escaped.
I just got out of a year-and-a-half of being homeless.
I'm 35 years old now and I don't know what to do with my life.
I have CP, narrow angle glaucoma, ROP, PTSD, generalized anxiety disorder, IBS, panic attacks, learning disability.
I'm on 3 different anxiety medications,
Yes I volunteer every week a shelter for cats and dogs.
Go back into the workforce and going back to school doesn't appeal to me.
I live off SSDI in a run down camper in South Carolina.
I'm have had very serious trauma in my life, I don't even want to try dating.
I trust very few people.
I've had so many terrible things happen I don't know if I will ever recover.
Friends being murdered, friends being raped, I had people who claim to care about me, abandon me twice in a year at a random motel.
I have a few very good friends but they live on the other side of the country, no family that's worth talking too.
I have the same counselor for about a year, she is good but I need somebody that's the Michael Jordan of counseling.
I'm working on paying off my credit card debt and moving back to Washington state where my friends are.
Decades of hardship and suffering I don't even know what to say anymore
Oh yeah happy New Year
I had open heart surgery at 1 month old, was in the hospital for over a year
I was raised in a family unit with a twin brother and a mother who was a narcissist.
After 30 years of Hell, I escaped.
I just got out of a year-and-a-half of being homeless.
I'm 35 years old now and I don't know what to do with my life.
I have CP, narrow angle glaucoma, ROP, PTSD, generalized anxiety disorder, IBS, panic attacks, learning disability.
I'm on 3 different anxiety medications,
Yes I volunteer every week a shelter for cats and dogs.
Go back into the workforce and going back to school doesn't appeal to me.
I live off SSDI in a run down camper in South Carolina.
I'm have had very serious trauma in my life, I don't even want to try dating.
I trust very few people.
I've had so many terrible things happen I don't know if I will ever recover.
Friends being murdered, friends being raped, I had people who claim to care about me, abandon me twice in a year at a random motel.
I have a few very good friends but they live on the other side of the country, no family that's worth talking too.
I have the same counselor for about a year, she is good but I need somebody that's the Michael Jordan of counseling.
I'm working on paying off my credit card debt and moving back to Washington state where my friends are.
Decades of hardship and suffering I don't even know what to say anymore
Oh yeah happy New Year
slightlyoffki 15 points 5y ago
You need to stop using the things that were/are beyond your control as excuses not to change things you CAN control.
Narrow angle glaucoma? Find a doctor who will do an LPI (laser peripheral iridotomy), any decent doctor will do it for free or for very cheap if you don't have health insurance, it's a simple procedure that will save your sight.
PTSD and panic attacks? They have medications that will help you get your feet under you while you learn how to manage your emotions appropriately. Find an activity that relieves stress. Try meditating or Tai Chi or yoga. Cut caffeine and alcohol if you're drinking them. You're already seeing a therapist, which is good. IBS? Time to overhaul your diet.
Volunteering is cute but most of this self-improvement stuff requires you to pay more for decent food or exercise/wellness classes. Work doesn't "appeal" to you? Spoiler alert, work doesn't appeal to *anyone*, it doesn't stop most of us from busting our asses. If you're capable of working, you should, even if it's only part-time. It helps get you on a schedule and keeps you connected to the real world outside your bubble of self-pity. I'm sorry, but not working is just not an option for most people in this country.
I would not start dating until you get your life together and start to feel comfortable with yourself. It sounds like you need to surround yourself with better people. This will happen without you trying as you gain more confidence in yourself. Your counselor can only guide your efforts, she cannot just wave a magic wand and make your life better for you. You have to do that part yourself, and it is really hard work.
Narrow angle glaucoma? Find a doctor who will do an LPI (laser peripheral iridotomy), any decent doctor will do it for free or for very cheap if you don't have health insurance, it's a simple procedure that will save your sight.
PTSD and panic attacks? They have medications that will help you get your feet under you while you learn how to manage your emotions appropriately. Find an activity that relieves stress. Try meditating or Tai Chi or yoga. Cut caffeine and alcohol if you're drinking them. You're already seeing a therapist, which is good. IBS? Time to overhaul your diet.
Volunteering is cute but most of this self-improvement stuff requires you to pay more for decent food or exercise/wellness classes. Work doesn't "appeal" to you? Spoiler alert, work doesn't appeal to *anyone*, it doesn't stop most of us from busting our asses. If you're capable of working, you should, even if it's only part-time. It helps get you on a schedule and keeps you connected to the real world outside your bubble of self-pity. I'm sorry, but not working is just not an option for most people in this country.
I would not start dating until you get your life together and start to feel comfortable with yourself. It sounds like you need to surround yourself with better people. This will happen without you trying as you gain more confidence in yourself. Your counselor can only guide your efforts, she cannot just wave a magic wand and make your life better for you. You have to do that part yourself, and it is really hard work.
Goats247 [OP] -2 points 5y ago
I've changed my diet, and I'm on Lexapro, Ativan and Gabapentin.
I don't drink or use caffeine
Obviously going back to work is going back to work is very difficult, and I don't know if it's worth it, I don't want anything to effect my Disability benefits.
I live in a small little shit hole of a town with no public transportation.
I think I need a different counselor as well.
I can't wait to get back to Washington State and get the fuck out of South Carolina.
By the way , you sound like an asshole, you should work on how you talk to people.
I don't drink or use caffeine
Obviously going back to work is going back to work is very difficult, and I don't know if it's worth it, I don't want anything to effect my Disability benefits.
I live in a small little shit hole of a town with no public transportation.
I think I need a different counselor as well.
I can't wait to get back to Washington State and get the fuck out of South Carolina.
By the way , you sound like an asshole, you should work on how you talk to people.
MeowWhat 15 points 5y ago
He didn't sound like an asshole. He told you what you needed to hear the way you needed to hear it. Did you come here for real advice or for someone to give you some magic solution?
Goats247 [OP] -1 points 5y ago
You can give good advice without being an asshole about it
slightlyoffki 10 points 5y ago
It sounds like you're taking the right steps. Sorry if I came across like an asshole, I wish you the best of luck. You've got a tough road ahead of you. If you've made it this far, you can keep going.
shesonfleek 2 points 5y ago
I'm glad you're getting back to Washington where you're friends are. Having positive people around you makes a big difference!
shesonfleek 1 points 5y ago
What part of Washington? I live in the Everett area and there are a few animal shelters here that would appreciate more volunteers.
themmama 2 points 5y ago
Hi and welcome. I can relate to a lot of what you wrote. I too have rop and had heart surgery when a baby. I also have hearing issues. Feel frae to message me if you would like to chat more.
There is another sub called raisedbynarcissists which Ih found helpful. Also, there is a email list for blind people who have issues like you stated, but I won't put the info on here. If you wantto know more, just message me.
I hope yh a good 2018 and I hopey find great support here on redit - it's a great place!
There is another sub called raisedbynarcissists which Ih found helpful. Also, there is a email list for blind people who have issues like you stated, but I won't put the info on here. If you wantto know more, just message me.
I hope yh a good 2018 and I hopey find great support here on redit - it's a great place!
Goats247 [OP] 3 points 5y ago
Thanks 8)
Yes I'm familiar with they're raised by narcissists subreddit, I don't go there too often, it reminds me too much of my childhood
You know I guess I can say my vision is better than it used to be, used to have cataract so thick that I had basically no vision
Vision used to be hand movements, it's a lot better after the surgery but there's so many problems
It's a real mess in there
2018 will better than 2017
Least I don't have to sleep in a crackhouse anymore
Yes I'm familiar with they're raised by narcissists subreddit, I don't go there too often, it reminds me too much of my childhood
You know I guess I can say my vision is better than it used to be, used to have cataract so thick that I had basically no vision
Vision used to be hand movements, it's a lot better after the surgery but there's so many problems
It's a real mess in there
2018 will better than 2017
Least I don't have to sleep in a crackhouse anymore
tinozn 1 points 5y ago
All i can say is I feel for you! I hope things get better for us.
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