TacomaWA [OP] 1 points 4y ago
I will admit, when I first heard the diagnosis and did a little research into what it meant, I went through a several months-long phase of denial. Yes, I should have known better. I am middle aged and have plenty of life under my belt. However, I have never been dependent on anyone. I have always been able to completely rely on myself... so... this was really upending.
I am trying to not be too hard on myself about it. I am human.
The person who was with me at the doctor's office and witnessed everything, however, was outraged with the doctor and kept nagging on me to do something about it. I just kept putting him off because I didn't want to think about it. It took me a few months to see it for what it was.
Yet, I cannot deny what is happening to me. Even as I type this, I can't read any of this text with my left eye. It is all distorted like looking through wavy glass. I can only see *much* larger fonts... and, even then, I have to concentrate to see what the letter is.
Fortunately, my right eye is much better, but I can tell things are declining there too. I have macular degeneration in both eyes so it is just a matter of time. I know that.
Again, I am middle aged. My life is (was) settled... I have a very good job but am a long way to retirement. This is upending things and I need to find a path. I absolutely know there is one, I just have to start figuring it out. And, that is where I am at right now.
Thanks for your help. I appreciate it.
All my very best...