My partner learned in his early 30s that he was going blind. Some sort of weird glaucoma. He’s 58 now and is legally blind. When he found out he went through a very difficult time where he was horribly depressed and really struggling, understandably. He finally went for therapy and it made all the difference in the world to him, he chose cognitive behavioural therapy but everybody’s different.

I’m no psychologist or psychiatrist but it sounds to me like you are probably depressed, again understandable given what you’re living with. Add the pressure of being away from your support systems, school is not easy for anybody, it would be more surprising if you weren’t having some problems. Your school may have counselling services available, if you want to get your life back on track you have to find a way to learn to live with this.

It’s not fair, it’s horrible and don’t feel guilty for feeling bad. Just because other people have it worse doesn’t mean that you’re not allowed to vent.

All I can say is that I know what that's like. I wished more than once that I didn't need to take so much time to complete a task. When I got my screen reader, I thought oh damn it, I'll take as much time as I need. As for judgement, I love the fact I don't see those funny looks at least. Sometimes people judge you for this, but it's not like it's your fault or like you can just change it. They can go to hell if they don't like this, or like Hagrid said, they aren't worht bothering with. Try to talk to that friend you have, talking can help. Maybe your school also has resources to help you.There should be an accessability department or something like that. There is a very good saying that it too will pass. Now it seems like it won't, but it will. Ive had a rough time while studying, but I survived. You will too.

It is good that you're reaching out. Your school might have resources that you can access to help with making studying easier as well as someone to talk to about the depression you're experiencing. You've taken the first step!