I felt exactly like that after going blind, and no amount of therapy, counseling, or medication would fix me because, as I ended up finding out, I wasn't really depressed, just bored. Even though there were no state of emergency regulations in place or deadly viruses lurking around at the time I was and still am a stay-at-home kind of person, and without anything to do at home I thought that there was no longer a reason to live, until I found out that I could still code (something I used to do both professionally and as a hobby before losing my sight), and right now, despite the virus and the possibility of losing my disability benefits due to the onsetting crisis, I'm the happiest I've been since losing my sight.

I'm currently working on something that may be of use to you once I make it available to the public: a fully accessible feature-rich MIDI sequencer which will allow anyone to control MIDI-compliant synthesizers with an Apple device as well as compose music using any kind of MIDI-compliant controller. Unfortunately it's in early stages of development as I still have to implement support for Standard MIDI Files and sound banks as well as figure out how to cram so many editing tools into a small screen such as the iPhone's, but it's already doing multi-track playing and recording as well as responding to all the standard MIDI controller messages, so it's already possible to compose music with it,, just not to save it anywhere. If all goes according to my plans I hope to make it public at least on GitHub and hopefully on Testflight by August or September.

any hobbies or interests? Have you considered learning something new? Podcasting, vlogging, writing? online classes/training?

it's a horribse time for thousands of people. I'm lucky to be isolated with my wife and child and to still have work to go back to, maintaining a structure to my day. I'm pretty sure without that I'd be going even madder than I am.

Definitely get where you’re coming from. Depressed and going blind before corona now it’s even worse, and all the therapists and support is over the phone and no where close to what it’s like in person. To top it off I’m probably going to lose my drivers licence and all chance of having a job Id like. I’ve been knitting to pass the time it does take a lot of practice to learn but can be more touch based, so many try something like that. Coding isn’t bad either there’s a website called data camp that teaches the basics so you can start out there.

Lots to unpack here. First feeling lonely during the pandemic is normal, I’m holed up with parents a pond despite having people around I do feel lonely for friends. You can take control of this by being very active and contacting people, everyone is in same situation and whilst a zoom call isn’t great the a phone call is. Make a list of people to talk to and call them, ask how they are take an interest in what they are doing then arrange a time to call them again. That way you feel more connected.

Govs are doing loads but can understand your frustration.

As for girlfriends / boyfriends etc this will come as you find a life outside once this is over. In the mean time do loads of talking and perhaps find a local support group RNIB have links and they are good. https://www.rnib.org.uk/services-we-offer-advice-and-support-services/talk-and-support

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