Gaming is supposed to be fun. I empathise with you because I really want to be good at games to play with my boyfriend, but we can still have fun together. It's just a different experience for each of us. Playing with me is not the same as playing with his friends alone for example.
If you want to struggle, communicate that. Your friends are probably uncomfortable with seeing you have a hard time and don't know how to handle it. They don't want to make you feel bad, and are doing what they think is right or think you want. The only solution is to communicate what you want. I know some people take gaming very seriously and if they would rather win or perform well than be accommodating to play with a friend, then that's a whole other issue. It sounds like they are supportive though.

People don't understand because they only know what they see and we only know what we see. The only way to bridge the gap is to communicate! A skill I am trying to work on, I am tired of silently hurting or feeling less than for something that isn't within my control.
Not sure if this is helpful, but I definitely get where you're coming from. I struggle with the same things you mentioned.

I feel useless too, because I live off disability benefits and no longer pull my own weight. I know it's possible, but can't find a way to be productive enough to be an asset to anyone, so I stay at home coding to distract myself from blindness.

I used to be dependable before going blind, so while I've never been through anything similar I can empathize with your feelings when your girlfriend asks someone else for assistance.

My life is currently suspended until I either regain sight or die, and my only interest at the moment is in keeping up with technology so that I can be competitive in the job market if I ever regain sight. I know that this isn't the right way to tackle the situation, but at least I'm not suffering at the moment as I'm keeping myself busy.

Fuck, I feel your Payne, and I don't even know you. Honestly, this is the reason my social circle is so closed. I hate feeling like this, so I'd rather be an introvert instead.

I'm getting this myself in recent years. I get frustrated as hell that I can't help my elderly parents as much as I want to, and usually end up needing help from them instead. I feel like a pet rather than a relative. Disability involves putting a lot of trust in others and it *suuuuucks* to be on edge about trusting people's motives for being nice to you. I don't know what to tell you to do because I haven't figured it out either, but I wanted to empathize nonetheless. (It just occurred to me that, in doing this, I feel somewhat useful.)

It's not so much that I feel useless, though that is a very real thing for me as well, as it is that I feel like a burden. I have siblings and cousins around the same age as me (in our twenties), and we love to play games, both indor card games and outdor sports. I have Braille card games, but what makes me feel like a burden to them is when we play something like spoons and they always put a spoon slightly closer to me so I can have a better chance of grabbing it. And when we play sports, I don't really do much except hike or throw my brother the ball and watch everyone else play and laugh and have fun, wondering what's happening and who's winning. I just stand there not doing anything except when my brother plays that side game with me of throwing the ball back and forth. He says I'm not a burden, and that they all like playing with me and are happy to adapt games for me, but I can't help still feeling like it. I feel bad whenever they have to adapt games, even it's just the tiniest little thing. I also wish I could get more volved with them when they play sports. I hate just standing there and "watching". By the way I put watching in quotes.
Sorry for this super long rant, I just want you to know that I totally get you. Oh, I also feel super useless/awkward whenever I eat with utencils, especially if I'm with sighted people, and especially if those people are my blind teachers or people I don't know well.

Totally blind here and I can empathize with you. Over the last five years that I’ve been completely blind, I’ve felt more and more useless since I don’t contribute to the household in whatever ways I used to. I feel like people close to me are much more content and not being around me because of my blindness since they don’t have to worry about talking to me or being familiar with me. I’ve also sensed that more of my friends quickly distanced themselves from me since I don’t get the calls or texts from them like I used to. I also feel like if something happened to me that removed me from their current lives, some of them would not miss me at all and some of them would be relieved to not have me around anymore. It absolutely fucking sucks to hear the one person you love the most in the world tell you that sometimes doing the simplest things with you are not really worth doing because of the added difficulty of including me in said activity.

This hits very close to home. I also have LCA and can understand how you feel. Losing vision gradually over time really sucks, especially when it interferes with doing activities you once enjoyed. It can be so alienating and lonely.

This hit home. My advice is to just have fun honestly. I have RP and it's really hard for me to see video games. Everything is too dark and moves much too fast. Even though I absolutely suck, I make it a point to play with my friends. In my opinion it's not at all about winning. It's about having fun! I may get 2 kills and 27 deaths in Call of Duty, but I'll have a blast doing it!

I usualy put on music or audiobooks or videos when I feel down.

The truth is that during the past year and the current one I have felt vastly useless.

First, since the quarantine began, my university began to use an online class model, to which I could not adapt.

Then, due to the lockdown, my ex-girlfriend ended our relationship due to distancing issues (she lives 18 miles from me) and while before the confinement I could see her almost every day throughout the previous year, the public transport service was not possible. it was restricted to essential workers.

Also, since I live in a third world country (Argentina) I don't have access to as much technology as in other places, nor to so many job opportunities. Thanks to discrimination and several other factors, I am unable to access any job that does not require studies or training that I cannot afford.

An example: here many people my age earn money working for food and delivery companies, but this requires sight. It hurts to see advertisements on the internet and on TV, in addition to the comments of many people on social networks, that with your cell phone and a bike you can start to get ahead. It's not those people's fault, just my disability.

I am much further behind than my brothers, for example my twin brother managed to get a scholarship and a job in Spain starting as a cook at McDonalds.

And to make matters worse, I can't go to train Brazilian jiu jitsu, which was my favorite activity.

And well, on a small note, I cannot collect the disability benefits offered by the state without losing other services that I need, for a reason that is a bit complicated to explain.

my social circle is and was insignificant. As time went by, I lost friends because they were immersed in their interests, things in which I could not follow them. During the first half of last year, my ex-girlfriend was almost my only contact, until what I mentioned above happened.

I live in my parents' house, and because of how the country is and because of my lack of money and work I suppose it will continue like this for a long period of time.

I honestly feel like shit, and I don't know how to get out of the well.

Sorry for the length of my answer and the grammatical errors, English isn't my native language.

I forgot to say it, I am totally blind, I have no visual remains.

I just know there will never be another me, and that if I was to suddenly die, my friends' lives would be a lot worse, I wanna be sure everyone around me that I care about is happy, and I can't do that if I just feel useless.

Sometimes I feel like I'm just not worth anything, but then I remember that I want to be remembered when I pass, and I'm not gonna get there if I sultk about the fact I can't do anything, when really I just need to realise I can do things, I just need to do them and show what I can offer the world, and eventually my YouTube fans when I get ooff my ass and start uploading again

Have you tried being assertive about maybe I want to join you guys and I want to play the visual parts and struggle or ask your girlfriend to ask you about those things?

Just a question. what are ur opinions on neuralink and Elon musk stating that they will be able to cure blindness? Would you want that yes or no? ( the reason I’m asking this is because someone on tiktok claimed the blind community wouldn’t be okay with this, so I came to ask) (I apologise if the words I used were a bit insensitive )