When I began losing sight to glaucoma, I was in denial, thinking that it was just a mild issue that could be fixed somehow, then three years passed and I went totally blind. After that I just thought my life would continue to be the walk in the park that it had been all along, and to some extent it actually is, since my disability benefits are enough for me. However I wasn't prepared for the boredom that was to come due to thinking that I could no longer code, which I used to do both professionally and as a hobby, so all I wanted was to die, but since I was afraid of the consequences of failing a suicide attempt I endured the boredom for 5 years until I realized that I was actually skilled enough to do it blind..

Nowadays I just distract myself so much with code that I don't even have time to think about my blindness, and since as I mentioned my disability benefits are enough to keep me afloat I don't really have much to worry about, so in a sense my life is actually good. I still wish to regain sight and resume my former life, because I feel that I didn't take enough advantage of my sight while it lasted, and I really don't like being inspirational just because I'm disabled, but blindness is not the end of the world for me anymore.

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Probably not what you're looking for, but honest answer? I couldn't kill myself.

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From there, it's just pushing forward, day by day, staying strong and keeping your head down. Things are going well for me again now, but upon first going blind, yeah... it's do or die, quite literally.

I went from normal sight to nothing in less than a day, probably a matter of an hour or two at the age of 19, so young adult.

If this is about you, the first thing I would say is that it'll be different for everyone so don't try to do what someone else did and expect some sort of easy fix. I can only tell you about what it was like for me. I think it breaks down into two things both of which help. The first is practical dealing with it stuff which I think is like doing a college course in a hard science, it is that much stuff. There are lots of people and organisations which will try to tell you they can teach you that stuff, and to an extent they can, but you have to learn to deal with the real world on the terms you want to deal with it. You have to learn how to do the specific stuff you want to do. Only you can work that out.

Then once you start to get that stuff down it's just time. The thing is, everyone says it's time, and that's true, but time does not help if you sit around doing nothing. If you sit around doing nothing, time just makes you more and more bored and miserable. I know someone who's going through this right now and during the pandemic it's already a boring time, so it's pretty hard to find stuff to do. You have to find stuff, and that's on you. There is a fine line between working through the problem and distracting yourself and I guess both are fine to an extent, but it's important not to just sit around and hope time does something magic on its own. It won't.

Does that help?

I lost my sight at the age of 16. It was on my 16th birthday. It has been a day to day process, but it gets to be very easy as the days move on. I am 44 now, married, and a musician/producer. I run a small media company along with my wife. Life is good, and aside from a few accessability road bumps along the way, everything is cool. I do miss playing video games though. lol Stay positive, and embrace the learning process. There is always a work around. 👍👍👍

I profoundly grieved the ability to read, see color, and especially the ability to see faces.