I threw in the towel and gave up trying work 2 years ago. I held out as long as I could to work but it just became to difficult and my anxiety rose to the point of feeling ill daily. Too much pressure and stress trying to meet quotas was insane. Reasonable Accommodations didn't exist.

SS sent me to a testing facility and I got the results in the mail. I was worse off than I figured. SS checks soon arrived and are welcome. My wife tries to get me to find a part time jobbut I'm not that interested interacting with people.

Don't feel guilty for something you have no control over.

You shouldn’t feel guilt. Just be determined to focus on self improvement and skill building until you find a paying job that you enjoy. You will end up paying back what SSI you have collected in a very short time.

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Don’t feel bad at all. Corporations and rich individuals get all kinda subsidies. And don’t even get me started on war money. I’m OVERJOYED when regular ppl are helped by taxes!!! That’s how it’s supposed to be!

Well no, no one *deserves* it. But it's temporary assistance.

Hispanics can be somewhat direct, so don't any SJWs start jumping down my throat, but I'm going to relay a conversation that my dad and I had.

We came to the conclusion that the government is willing to help out people with severe disabilities because, otherwise, they'd become a burden to the state or society. it's better to give a blind person an education, spend a little into them, so that they can then pay you back, via taxes, more than you ever invested in them.

Regardless, it's temporary. A lot of Americans like to think America isn't like European countries and we don't take away people's money through taxes, but the truth is that a young single person will typically get somewhere between 30 to 40% taken out because of taxes.

So take it easy, accept it as a blessing in disguise, and focus on making yourself a better person. besides, sooner or later, Old Uncle Sam is going to be asking for it back anyway.

This is how I put things: at the moment, and given that I'm totally blind and haven't found a way to be an asset to any company, I'd rather be a public burden than a burden to a company. Sovereign states have a social responsibility to provide an exit to those who've for some reason lost the ability to carry their own weight, even if that means an exit from life to those who choose it. Since my country doesn't provide said exit from life, they have to support me until they can demonstrate that it's reasonable to expect that the average human being is able to carry their own weight in my circumstances.

Feel zero guilt. It's normal to feel the way you do, don't get me wrong. We all second guess ourselves at times. But we paid into the system so that when we need it, us or our family or our community members could be supported. In a society where we have MORE than enough resources to make sure everyone is taken care of, the small payment that you get barely defrays the extra medical and other expenses you likely have because of your blindness. Look at it as leveling the playing field and making things fair for you, not getting something "extra." Because most people don't get blindness so you got extra difficulties. Take advantage of any and everything that offers help that comes with your disability and feel no guilt at all. You deserve it!

Social Security/Disability is an insurance policy the Government requires you to participate in. My pay stub calls it OASDI, Old Age, Social Security, and Disability Insurance. If you or your family worked, you’ve paid for this insurance. It’s silly to feel guilty for something you or your family have paid for.

I had a similar feeling. I never felt like it was mine because I didn't earn it. However, think of it as a helping hand, so you can better invest in yourself.

It’s available for a reason. I’ll need it soon however, I may have different plans. Just do the best you can and you’ll be fine.