Hi,
Thank you so very much for your suggestion. I fully understand that I have to sort this all out in the real, non-virtual life at the place of my living, so there's no need in mentoring. But I really appreciate any input whatever it is, it already makes much difference. I would gladly have an interaction with you, even will dare to have a talk if you don't mind so the conversation goes more lively and I can perceive your "manliness" in a more explicit way, so feel free to hit me up.
Sorry, you called yourself a kind of a "bootstrap", and I guess this must be some slang phrase, but since I live outside of the English speaking world, you're the first person who has said that. Could you please tell me what you meant? This is totally fine to talk this colloqually to me, my English as at an advanced level, so this is actually what I also need very much, but just be ready for me being dim or that I might want you to explain to me what you said.
By saying that I don't know how to "deal" with men I nean that I don't know what to expect almost from any older man, how he may react at me and what he can say next, kind of in overall what to do and how to behave. This is a really weird double feeling: on the one hand, I perceive most men apart from quiet smart geniuses as somewhat out of my experience and for some reason as people I should beware of, but on the other hand, this interaction and knowing how to handle different situations with them is what I've been craving the most. And right you are, I'm not around them at all.