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Your mind taking a mental break from being blind? (self.Blind)
submitted by mdizak
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Am I alone, or does this hold true for anyone else? Does your guys' mind ever decide to simply stop working, and it needs to take a break from life and this whole being blind thing?

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I'm sorry, but being blind is such an absolute pain in the ass, isn't it? Life is difficult enough without going blind getting thrown into the process. Now just the simple things like going down to the store to pickup a few items is this whole thing that needs to be planned and executed with military precision, because if you don't, then you may find yourself wandering around like a lost, blind asshole for hours until either some stranger or the cops pick you up and bring you back home.

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And I'm not joking about the military precision part. If I simply accidentally turn my body 5 degress in the wrong direction, that's it. I'm totally lost and disorientated until someone sees me and decides to help me out.

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All the while, I'm sitting here and technically responsible for operations that are doing $40k+ per-day. At the same time, a non-zero number of people out there just pass me off as some sub-human due to the fact I'm blind, which is irritating.

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I don't know, I just find once in a while my mind decides no more, and shuts down on me while it takes a break from life. Does that hold true for anyone else here?
zersiax 10 points 1y ago
As a person who's been blind their entire life, I can't say I recognize this experience, no.

If i get lost, I use a GPS app on my phone to find my way back. If I need to go to the store, I harness my guide dog and go.

Callous as that sounds though i really do recognize your position re: the getting lost and disoriented part, i was like that for the first several years when I moved out of my folks' place.

I can only advise you to train yourself to use the resources you have at your disposal. Take O&m classes, see if technology can help you at all, but above all that ...just do things. Worst thing you can do is fail, and you rarely get just one chance. Got lost? Fun chance to see a place you haven't been before. You'll find where you were going eventually, might as well make the most of it while that hasn't happened yet. Obviously if you're going somewhere in a hurry that isn't really an option, though :)
Criptedinyourcloset 3 points 1y ago
I’m in the same boat as you except I still have a little bit of vision. It is quite annoying, but you do have to make the best out of it. I am most likely to lose the rest of my vision in the future, so might as well learn what to do now so that I don’t get lost like that.
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mdizak [OP] 3 points 1y ago

Yeah, I hear you. I made a promise back to myself last December, I'll never again feel as though I need to defend or prove myself to anyone. People are welcome to think whatever they want about me, I simply don't care anymore.

It's honestly worked wonders for me. Everything is much easier and less stressful now.

I'll still stick to the fact that being blind is simply a pain in the ass though.
Berenice101 4 points 1y ago
I agree that being blind can be a pain.
We just have to make the best of it.
Fridux 3 points 1y ago
The energy required to do just about anything is what took me longest to accept since going blind. I'm not a very energetic person, which is a nice way of saying that I'm quite lazy, and on top of that I'm a process-oriented person, which metaphorically means that I extract constant enjoyment from experiences like climbing the mountain rather than bursts of enjoyment from achievements like reaching the summit. When I had sight my lifestyle allowed me to be lazy and only do what I wanted because I earned enough money to pay others to do my chores, so I felt quite happy as I was. Unfortunately those times are long gone, and on top of my laziness there's also a problem with my mother having an anxiety disorder with episodes triggered by things like me going out alone, so even if I wasn't this lazy I'd still have to fight resistance from her. The fact that my performance is severely affected by my inability to see also bothers me a lot since I feel that I should be able to extract a lot more enjoyment from using my skills than I'm currently extracting.

Personally I don't think that one should be required to live through this crap. I'm not saying that it's totally impossible for some to live fulfilling lives blind, what I'm saying is that I feel that I'm not cut out for this. It's too much for me, I'm not strong enough, and quite honestly can hardly wait for either accidental or natural death to come, which are both unlikely since the rest of my body is extremely healthy and I'm being overprotected. We do euthanize horses when they break a leg because that's the most humanly thing to do, so I don't understand this pro-life bullshit when it comes to humans. Quantity of life is worthless without quality of life.
devinprater 2 points 1y ago
I feel this so much.
hopesthoughts 1 points 1y ago
Well sure if I get a really bad headache everything shuts down like everything!!! I have to remember to breathe most of the time.
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