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Vent time (self.Blind)
submitted by Aronfeliciano
I’m venting here. If you’re not interested just move on. I figured I would give another warning.
I’m a senior in high school and I’m trying to do as much as I can. I’m trying to be involved in my theater activities and we were doing a haunted trail this weekend. I was really excited to work at it and be a part of something but you know that never happens for me I guess. After walking the trail twice I knew that there was no way I would be able to navigate it in the dark. The areas are too uneven and even with my cane it’s difficult to move around.
I knew that it would be difficult and there was no way I could walk that fucker in the dark at 9 o’clock at night. I would walk too slow because I don’t know where I am and then I feel like I would slow everyone down. This would make the scene go completely to shit. Maybe some of that anxiety but my friend constantly commented about how I was walking too slow. I know he didn’t mean anything by it but it was seriously upsetting me but I didn’t wanna say anything. I hate talking about my blindness as it is.
I made the decision to quit and I feel horrible. I wanted to do this and I couldn’t. I hate not being able to do things that everyone else can. I told my dad about and he didn’t seem to understand why I was so upset.
I’ve also done orientation mobility today so that doesn’t help. The entire day was focused on my blindness and trying to live with it. That sounds great but it really hinders me a lot. I try not to focus on it all the time because I feel horrible about it. There are people who are way worse off than I am but I’m venting on read it so I’ve really done a thing haven’t I?
I hope you enjoy this, I’m sorry. This really isn’t the place to do this and it sucks that I’m doing it anyway. Hope you all are having a better day than I am
I’m a senior in high school and I’m trying to do as much as I can. I’m trying to be involved in my theater activities and we were doing a haunted trail this weekend. I was really excited to work at it and be a part of something but you know that never happens for me I guess. After walking the trail twice I knew that there was no way I would be able to navigate it in the dark. The areas are too uneven and even with my cane it’s difficult to move around.
I knew that it would be difficult and there was no way I could walk that fucker in the dark at 9 o’clock at night. I would walk too slow because I don’t know where I am and then I feel like I would slow everyone down. This would make the scene go completely to shit. Maybe some of that anxiety but my friend constantly commented about how I was walking too slow. I know he didn’t mean anything by it but it was seriously upsetting me but I didn’t wanna say anything. I hate talking about my blindness as it is.
I made the decision to quit and I feel horrible. I wanted to do this and I couldn’t. I hate not being able to do things that everyone else can. I told my dad about and he didn’t seem to understand why I was so upset.
I’ve also done orientation mobility today so that doesn’t help. The entire day was focused on my blindness and trying to live with it. That sounds great but it really hinders me a lot. I try not to focus on it all the time because I feel horrible about it. There are people who are way worse off than I am but I’m venting on read it so I’ve really done a thing haven’t I?
I hope you enjoy this, I’m sorry. This really isn’t the place to do this and it sucks that I’m doing it anyway. Hope you all are having a better day than I am
Iamheno 19 points 1y ago
Why isn’t this the place? Vent away!
Just a thought, but could you team with someone to do one of the scares?
Just a thought, but could you team with someone to do one of the scares?
Aronfeliciano [OP] 11 points 1y ago
The whole point was to go in groups but the trail is very uneven in width. Some parts are very very wide and some aren’t and I don’t go there a lot so it makes me really nervous and exacerbates anxiety. I also have really shitty reaction time so that one’s always fun.
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Iamheno 7 points 1y ago
Have you ever worked with a human guide and a tether Like for running? If it’s someone you know and trust, they can tell you to go behind in the narrow sections.
Also, if it’s uneven maybe you can play up your blindness make it part of your groups journey? Like they need to guide you, or make it like Birdbox, everyone gets blindfolde?
Also, if it’s uneven maybe you can play up your blindness make it part of your groups journey? Like they need to guide you, or make it like Birdbox, everyone gets blindfolde?
Aronfeliciano [OP] 8 points 1y ago
As amazing as that would be, the storyline had been picked from the get-go. I love that so much though.
thatblindgirl 15 points 1y ago
We can all be extremely well-adjusted but there are times when your blindness just hits you in the face and you can’t stop thinking about it. I know that it is overwhelming and this is always the place to vent don’t be ashamed of it
Amber10101 8 points 1y ago
I think what you are feeling is totally normal and valid.
I hope you can find some time to relax and recuperate this weekend doing whatever makes you feel safe and comfortable. I like a good book and a cozy blanket to hide from the world when I’m feeling like garbage - but find something that helps you.
Being in high school is hard for everyone. Even the popular kids have garbage to deal with. Having something that makes you stand out can make school even tougher. As you get older and have more experiences, you’ll find the things that work well for you - keep your focus on the things you can develop!
I hope you can find some time to relax and recuperate this weekend doing whatever makes you feel safe and comfortable. I like a good book and a cozy blanket to hide from the world when I’m feeling like garbage - but find something that helps you.
Being in high school is hard for everyone. Even the popular kids have garbage to deal with. Having something that makes you stand out can make school even tougher. As you get older and have more experiences, you’ll find the things that work well for you - keep your focus on the things you can develop!
FaerilyRowanwind 4 points 1y ago
Hugs friend
wnolan1992 3 points 1y ago
I think we all have those days.
Like you, I try not to focus on my visual impairment. Most of the time, I function fairly normally.
But then something will happen. I'll be walking half way across a pedestrian crossing with my cane, a car will brake suddenly, and even though logically I know it was the driver not paying enough attention, I'll still feel like crap for hours afterward. (Happened last weekend).
The important thing for me is to try and have more good days than bad days. You'll have shit days. I don't think there's anyone with a disability who's able to just get on with things 100% of the time. Don't be too hard on yourself for feeling what you feel (as cliched as that sounds).
Like you, I try not to focus on my visual impairment. Most of the time, I function fairly normally.
But then something will happen. I'll be walking half way across a pedestrian crossing with my cane, a car will brake suddenly, and even though logically I know it was the driver not paying enough attention, I'll still feel like crap for hours afterward. (Happened last weekend).
The important thing for me is to try and have more good days than bad days. You'll have shit days. I don't think there's anyone with a disability who's able to just get on with things 100% of the time. Don't be too hard on yourself for feeling what you feel (as cliched as that sounds).
oncenightvaler 2 points 1y ago
I have been there, and have experiences like this sometimes. However I now have a trail that I regularly walk, and the trail is really well designed fortunately. Have you considered next time there's an event being what I would call the ghoulish greeter? You could decorate your cane for halloween and have creepy voices. Being disabled sucks, but it's not all of who you are.
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