Been home from work for a recent hemorrhage in only eye for the past 2 months. Saw retinologist Friday for a check. She said it's looking better on the inside. However, how I see from that eye is another story. Biggest offender is the photophobia and that doesn't look like it'll go away any time soon.

After the dr visit, had to stop by work to talk to HR and a couple other coworkers. They haven't planned anything while I was away to try to ensure my job despite "everyone" there wanting me to come back. The owner, my super and few other higher ups will be having a meeting Monday to determine my fate. They've repeatedly told me they "can't" find anything for me to do on day shift, but would ecstatic to have me back on second. That wouldn't be a big deal if I had a way to get to work. But transportation is the least of my issues if I went back to work.

This photophobia is total BS. The 20-30 minutes waiting in the lobby at eye dr office gave me headaches from the overhead lights and forced me to wear sunglasses. I've experienced the same thing at the grocery store, too. The lights in stores are a lot higher than at work and I can't quit thinking about that. If I can't handle 20 to 30 minutes in a store, how am I supposed to work in a brightly lit room for 9 plus hours a night? Heck, even a 10-minute walk in broad daylight is enough to wig out that eye.

So, dr released me back to work, but I can't get there on second shift. Transportation via Uber is too expensive and public transit does readily reach where I live. My dad works first shift and if my employer finds something for me to do on first, then I can tag along with him until I can make arrangements to move closer to work. I don't think I'll get that chance. HR pretty much told me they aren't setup to accommodate me and even suggested I look into Envision (vision rehab center) for work. And that's when I spilled the beans about my end. I've been in contact with Envision and I even have a phone interview for 2 similar positions with them that would have me working just a few minutes from home.

So, while I'm in limbo land, I'm not making any money from the short-term disability nor my employer. This next week should prove interesting. I'm hoping to work for Envision, but I'm afraid of the pay cut they'll hit me with. I hope that's discussed Tuesday, too.

Anyways, been pretty bummed with the way things are going and even more bummed my employer not trying to help me out. I guess I had a misconception about becoming disabled and thought once I started down that path, things would get easier and more people would be willing to help. So far, that hasn't been the case.

Just wanted to get some things off my chest.