Grandma here. What you are really asking is why you exist. Everyone questions their existence that sometime or another. The answer from the greatest philosophers is that you are here to help others. That does not mean you are a doormat.
You are in a unique place no one else is there. Instead of killing time what can you do to make the world a better place and intern your life worthwhile?
What do you love? What can you get behind to make your life in the world a better place? I wish you the very best and I hope that you find happiness and fulfillment. Cheers

If you can't work volunteer. Depending on your vision there should be something you can do. A friend of mine volunteers at a school for the blind.

What are your interests?

If you need to, start small.

1. What's the best breakfast you could fix for yourself tomorrow?
2. What time do you want to have it?

Set yourself an alarm, get up, and have that breakfast.

​

After you have done that for a few days add lunch to the plan, then after a few days of that add dinner.

​

Each time you have several successes in a row add one more thing to the plan. Maybe something like:

* Walking through your community after breakfast and trying to smile and greet at least one person
* Taking a class, or listen to an audio book in the afternoon
* Visiting family, friends, or neighbors after dinner, or have them visit you
* Learn to play the guitar or some other musical instrument
* anything else you can think of until your days are consistently full

One day at a time, one task at a time, until you realize you are doing more than just surviving. Then it's time to starting thinking about what's next, knowing that you can do it.

I am sighted but I am currently unable to work or volunteer due to neurological issues that are related to an underlying rare (not hEDS) hereditary connective tissue disorder of which I am currently in the assessment process for. There are long wait times times, often years, to see the appropriate specialist for diagnosis in Canada. This information is to provide context, I wish to keep the rest of my comment relevant to the original post topic.

The following are some things that have helped me feel a sense of satisfaction with my current life.

1. Establishing daily and weekly routines is important. Most people depend on school or work to lay the foundation of their routine. When people transition from these environments it is sometimes difficult to establish one’s own new routine. I keep a fairly good routine for waking up, eating, hygiene, morning and afternoon activities, housework, naps, when I call family and friends, things of that nature.

2. Another aspect that is important is to find something that pertains to longer term personal development such as learning a new skill. Something that you can work on a bit daily over the span of months. The skill does not have to be explicitly useful to others but it should provide you with a sense of pride and satisfaction. I recently learned about container gardening and this will be my summer project alongside the continuation of my last project which is back-yard bird feeding.

3. Having a sense of community also helps. I know recently someone discussed church in another post. It does not have to be religious, it can be anything really where individuals with similar interests as you get together on a regular basis to participate in that interest. Honestly, I feel am currently lacking in this department as I am mostly housebound due to my difficulties with information and sensory processing overload among other neuro-related issues. I do have a close friend that I speak with regularly and also a disability mentor who has been an advocate in the field of chronic illness for longer than I have been alive. I do not have many people in my life but I cherish those who are. They are genuinely good caring people and see as much value in me as I do in them.


I hope offering my experience helps in some way.

Maybe get in touch with a vocational rehab service to help you find work, as well as look into volunteering.

I'm legally blind. 20/220 is my best corrected vision. Like 20/300 without glasses. Extreme light sensitivity. I was on SSI for years and felt this same way. I can't drive and definitely have a hard time getting employers to hire me if I mention my vision and they don't already know what I'm capable of. I've worked part time at fast food places and small family businesses where I had connections on and off since I was 16. Last year, I found something that I love doing and didn't think I was capable of before and I'm much happier working than not. I hope you can find something too! Crocheting/knitting is a great hobby to take up that would get me out of bed when I wasn't working, though. You could also take online classes that let you work at your own pace/with screen readers and magnifiers if you're able to. I'm currently enrolled in WGU and their accessibility team has been incredibly accommodating in regards to my disability.

Why can't you work?

I went through that during my first 5 years of blindness before I realized that I was still capable of coding. What helped me was to follow a daily routine to which I kept adding stuff to make my days easier to endure. I would wake up at 8AM to have breakfast, browse reddit to find and answer to interesting programming questions, shave and shower at 11AM, lunch at 12PM, lie in bed listening to the radio, visit my mother at 4PM, come back home to listen to the news and some shows on TV at 8PM, and finally brush my teeth and go to bed at 11PM. It wasn't a perfect solution, but it helped make the boredom bearable. Nowadays I just do whatever whenever, as my only daily routine is to brush my teeth every evening. When I'm not sleeping I'm either eating, taking care of personal hygiene, coding, or procrastinating here on reddit and listening to music.

Is there a reason you can't work?

Hi I’m in Similar situation and I would like to talk to someone who is going through the same thing if that’s ok pm me

I have worked with two blind people in my working life. They both had desk jobs--one was a software developer, and the other did social media marketing. If you have interest in working, perhaps you could train for a career that involves working at your computer like those mentioned above?

Same here except I don't qualify for SSI and on the path of looking for work. I'm not sure what state you live in but if transportation good maybe exploring the city/state with friends. volunteers depending on how much vision you have there might be lots of choices. I've tried the same as you. Listening to music, playing games etc. Was even going to move state with another blind friend just to have something new

[deleted]

I have chronic pain, and I'm also blind, (since birth.) Sometimes the pain is bad enough where I don't do much.
It's unpredictable as well, I could be fine for a week, then have really bad days for a couple weeks after that. I enjoy singing, for fun, following legal cases, mostly on Youtube, and surfing the web. Yeah, I still actually do that.