So I am a 21 year old male, and I have had HSV in my left eye since I was born. I lost most of my vision in my left eye (20/400) when I was 15. I was always told by my hometown eye doctors that it was impossible for it to move into my right eye, because most had never even seen a case of it in both eyes. Well, fast forward to may of this year- I notice that my right eye is starting to be really sensitive to light, had increased redness, and a slight amount of blurriness. So I make an appointment with a cornea specialist in Dallas, he looks in my eye and see’s something (I’m no doctor idk) and he started me on Acyclovir and a steroid eye drop- tells me that it is incredibly rare, but the virus moving eyes can happen, but told me not to worry too much and to see him in 2 weeks. 2 weeks later I go back, with still residual blurriness, but the sensitivity to light and redness is much less. He confirmed in that appointment that it has moved into my right eye as well. So now I take an acyclovir every day, and wait for the blurriness to take over. The specialist said that a cornea transplant is essentially out of the question, due to the vascularity of cornea-he said I’m in the highest possible risk category for rejection and complete blindness.

My problem lies within my goals, I am in my 4th year of college- majoring in kinesiology and entrepreneurship. My goal is/was/still is to become a high end gym owner, along with being a bodybuilding coach/bodybuilder. It is very hard for me to find motivation to keep working out, and keep working towards those goals, knowing that in 10 years I won’t be able to read my own sign on my gym. Or that I won’t be able to coach people on how they look, when I can’t see the details.
I don’t mean to come off as I’m whining, I’m just scared.

I hope this post wasn’t offensive to any visually impaired people, I truly am sorry if I said or implied anything that is offending anyone.