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Full History - 2022 - 07 - 18 - ID#w1rtvk
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I have suffered Optic Nerve inflammation and I have lost most of my sight because of staffing shortages (self.Blind)
submitted by HWyattMann123


Faced with this news, I am going to kill myself instead of live life all to keep my fucking relatives happy, whom I do not give a fucking shit about, as they are the obnoxious Christian types who think a person missing all of their limbs should be forced to exist in that condition because it is God's plan. No, he's forced to live that way, whether he wants or not, because he's a living breathing cash farm for the medical industry, all the money spent by John Q Taxpayer keeping him alive, from anti-depressants to opiods, just as I am forced to live this way for the same reason; it makes the doctor and the pharmaceutical industry money. I never gave a shit about my parents, only seeing them as people who offer me cheap rent, often horrifically physically abusing them when I did not get what I wanted as a teenager.

All of the things I liked to do in my life are gone; I can't play video games anymore, I can't do all of my hobbies anymore. And I fucking hate it when some sanctimonious disabled person has to chime in, leaving out the fact they were born this way, or disabled since fucking childhood. I am 23 years old, soon to be 24, and why the fuck should be forced to live because you feel offended. It is my right to refuse to live that way. It is a God-given Human right just as everything else. That is one of the many things I hate about this country, Canada. At least in Europe, I can get painfully euthanized, whereas I have to do it my self, possibly with a sharp object to the throat so as to die in a few seconds.

Oh, and before I hear all that crap about technology curing blindness. First off, even if they had the technology, it's ten years away because of trials. Secondly, stem cells are the fusion of medical science, always another thirty years away. Thirdly, medicine is a business and businesses need to make money, so it's more profitable selling a blind person drugs to make them happy, or if cybernetics goes anywhere, sell them prosthetics that break down every ten years at the cost of a house so as to put the person into millions of debt. Yeah, fuck all three of those pie in the sky bullshit possibilities.
MostlyBlindGamer 8 points 11m ago
I'm sure you're convinced you've got all your bases covered, as far as making this decision, but you don't seen to realize how many blind and visually impaired people play videogames.

You have your rights, but I'd advise against making a final decision based on incorrect assumptions.

If you got that one thing wrong, what else are you missing? You don't want to hear from those with more experience in this than you, but you realize we know more about this than you do, right?
blazblu82 7 points 11m ago
I, too, still play video games. I may not as far off as others here, but I am losing my vision nonetheless. I also engage in guitar playing. All is not lost when going blind, but it is a tough road to travel, especially going from fully sighted to having next to nothing.

I'm 39 years old and started my vision loss journey almost 3 years ago. I don't work anymore, which gives me more time to do what I want and just enjoy life instead of slaving away at a meaningless job. Biggest upside is I am now able to better manage my diabetes w/o work interfering or working unnatural hours.

Sounds like you might benefit from counseling to help you over this hurdle. I have had my fair share of "life is pointless" hurdles and I imagine I'll have more as my vision diminishes more.
Laser_Lens_4 6 points 11m ago
I was playing Stardew Valley about 12 hours ago. Great game. Totally blind, btw
DeeDeegc 5 points 11m ago
I'm 35 and newly blind. I also have not grown up learning how to handle this. I have many hobbies and interests that seem impossible for a blind person but I manage alright most of the time. I still play games. I was playing fallout 76 last night and plan to play more tonight. I build robots. I'm an engineering student and I maintain solid grades despite my new challenges.

The transition has not been easy physically or psychologically. Just the other day I got lost walking home from getting smokes. I also had to quit riding my bike too which was a heavy blow for me since is was my last option for independent travel. I do understand your anger, pain, fear, and cynicism.

It's not the end of the road though and you aren't forced to wait for tech to catch up. I'm in the process of designing tools that will allow me to continue my interests beyond total blindness. You can build the tools you need. There are also a lot of good tools on the market already. You don't need to be an engineer.

There are a lot of options between going blind and euthanization. You just have to do a little research. You may also consider moving out of your parents house. It won't do any of you any good if you live with people you hate. It's not a good environment.
DrillInstructorJan 1 points 11m ago
I went from normal sight to nothing in a day at 19 with no warning and you may not believe me but I know how you feel. I have had exactly the same thoughts about exactly the same things. People who were born in this situation trying to tell us how it is really chap my ass and you are completely valid in not liking it. One of the best things about this place is that we get to give them the middle finger whenever we like.

There's something I've said a lot around here which I'm going to say again because it's true. Lots of people will tell you things like, you'll get used to it, you'll be OK with it, and you will probably be thinking, that's impossible, how can anyone be okay with this. And guess what, you're completely right. I've been doing this for years and I'm never going to like it. When people say you'll somehow get used to it, that seems impossible, because it totally is impossible. You are absolutely right. Nobody likes sight loss and people who tell you they're totally happy with it and wouldn't change anything are probably people with no memory of sight. I think we share our love for those people.

Here comes the pep talk, kick me in the ass if you want. Sure okay, it's not really possible to find a way to like it. But it is absolutely possible to find a way to not like it in a way you can handle. There is no magic trick, it is not something that will automatically happen over time and you do not need any special abilities or to be a special kind of person. What you have to do is figure out all of the techniques that let you do a bunch of stuff, like travel, go out, work, keep yourself looking decent, and all the other normal life stuff. There catch is there is no easy way to do this, you just have to get your head around a whole bunch of stuff that you never thought you'd need. It is not easy but the difference is, it is definitely possible.

I know it doesn't seem like that but if you get all of that stuff down it makes it suck at least 75 per cent less and the rest you can probably deal with. The downside is that you have to find the motivation to go and do all that when you're feeling like you are now, which is the hard part.

Sorry there are no easy answers, but the point is, these hard answers are true and will work. Oh, and I don't play videogames, but that's just me.
Altrissa 1 points 11m ago
You are not alone! Like any disability, blindness and visual impairment can be a source of mental health issues and feel overwhelming. This community aims to support those struggling with this and those who support them. Please know that life holds often unknown and unexpected opportunities for all of us. Following is a list of resources that might be helpful.

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If you think you may be depressed or struggling in another way, don't ignore it or brush it aside. Take yourself and your feelings seriously, and reach out to someone.

It may not feel like it, but you have options. There are people available to listen to you, and ways to move forward.

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