I really liked work for the first week and a half I was back from leave. Now I’m back to hating it again. I feel like my job is pointless, I hate my self for working here. I’m starting to get the urge to start cutting again at work just to get through the day.(self.starbucksbaristas)
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ska_barista6 points3y ago
As a a barista ... who currently cuts ... dont. You know how shitty it is wearing long sleeves in nice weather.
ReEliseYT4 points3y ago
I’m already pretty covered in scars, I wear short sleeves and I usually have to deal with a customer every other day or so gasping or making some stupid comment about them. I’ve been clean for a while, it’s just really hard to stay that way while I’m at work.
It does make me feel better I’m not alone though, thank you. I am doing my best not to relapse. Seriously thank you, I hope we both get better.
Booyah_74 points3y ago
Can you take advantage of their college tuition? You could take classes that inspire you, like literature and art. You might even be able to get a degree and a better job. I found taking college classes that I liked made me think less about myself and understand that people in the world have always had problems and felt the same emotions I do.
ReEliseYT4 points3y ago
It’s a really great idea, but I already have a BS in psychology (the irony is not lost on me, the person with deteriorating mental health wants to go into the field of mental health) I just feel so drained mentally and emotionally that I can hardly do anything when I get home other than sleep.
dodofishman2 points3y ago
This. This is what I'm doing, it sucks ass to work any service job during this time but at least with this one you can get a degree/certificate.
AndrewtheRey3 points3y ago
I’m glad I’m not alone. I’m not cutting but I started crying in the bathroom the other day with suicidal thoughts racing through my head, and it was fueled by the fact that I am in my 20’s still working low wage fast food jobs.
nerdheartRN2 points3y ago
Yes. I left because of deteriorating mental health This job was also wrecking my body physically. I got tired of being short staffed, yelled at by shitty people, etc.
I decided to leave for good after both my parents got sick.
My mental Health did a 180 within weeks. I love my new job, and have energy to care for myself again.
lemonjuicepulp2 points3y ago
If it wasn’t for my boyfriend who would be pissed at me for doing so, I’d be cutting hard as well. This job really makes me want to inflict punishment on myself. You’re not alone
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