Starbucks Baristas: The daily grind
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Thinking about killing myself and laughing because I know Starbucks would only care about the lost coverage (self.starbucksbaristas)
submitted by Throwanonyway
I know nobody would grieve (they all hate me), they'd just be pissed i didn't show up to work. I see my manager now running around making phone calls, cursing me under their breath, probably trying some necromancy in the back asking "are you *sure* you can't come in today?"
Of course the company as a whole won't even know and will replace me in seconds, but it's especially harrowing to realize my coworkers would only care because they'd be down a person.
Of course the company as a whole won't even know and will replace me in seconds, but it's especially harrowing to realize my coworkers would only care because they'd be down a person.
Fryster 10 points 3y ago
I’ve got your back, partner. DM me if you need to talk
Fox_Empress 4 points 3y ago
I hope that you can transfer to a different store. You're peace is worth more.
If they don't say it I will. I love ya. One second at a time dear.
If they don't say it I will. I love ya. One second at a time dear.
Throwanonyway [OP] 2 points 3y ago
I can't transfer, but that wouldn't solve my problems. Starbucks is a big stressor yeah but only a small part of why I feel this way. Thank you for the support though
[deleted] 4 points 3y ago
Actually I think when a partner dies, the store either closes for 2 days or they get a full staff of borrowed partners so people can grieve. They will also get bereavement pay if they were scheduled. I think they also bring in mental health professionals if people need to talk.
In my experience, when I get thoughts about killing myself over something like school or a job, it’s a sign that I need to let something go. It sucks to “give up” but Starbucks isn’t worth dying over, especially if there is nothing keeping you there.
I hope you do what is right for you.
In my experience, when I get thoughts about killing myself over something like school or a job, it’s a sign that I need to let something go. It sucks to “give up” but Starbucks isn’t worth dying over, especially if there is nothing keeping you there.
I hope you do what is right for you.
Throwanonyway [OP] 1 points 3y ago
It's not just about Starbucks but that is definitely a factor too. Unfortunately my life would be mostly just as bad without it
cilantroprince 3 points 3y ago
people care even if they don’t show it, sometimes the stress of this job takes away the emotions we have about people as we all get caught up in the efficiency of everything going on. but honestly, fuck them. your life is so important and if people at a coffee shop job don’t value that then that’s on them, because at the end of the days it’s all just coffee, but you’re a whole and valid person.
keep fighting friend, things will get easier, i just know it <3
keep fighting friend, things will get easier, i just know it <3
Throwanonyway [OP] 2 points 3y ago
I don't feel valuable and haven't for many years so thank you. This job isn't the main reason for me feeling this way at all but it's definitely a part of it. Thanks for being so kind
jdsalingersdog 2 points 3y ago
You are valued apart from your job, your relationships, your past, your credit score. I hear you. My DMs are open for conversation.
Throwanonyway [OP] 1 points 3y ago
I don't feel that way at all but thank you. In this society everyone's only value is their job and credit score
jdsalingersdog 1 points 3y ago
I hear you. I see how you could feel that way. I struggle with the same. But society's values are not the only values that matter. Not to get too woo-woo, but society has no say on your inherent value, your spirit/soul/mind, etc. You wake up & are more than enough.
Throwanonyway [OP] 1 points 3y ago
That's a good sentiment but in practice it's not really how the world works. Money determines a person's value in our society like it or not, and that'll never change. Especially in America. Unless I'm rich or famous it really doesn't matter if I live or die. You say I'm enough no matter what but that isn't how society sees it and that's pragmatically what matters
keeendle 2 points 3y ago
I was admitted to the hospital when I was 16 due to extreme thoughts of suicide (luckily no attempt, but I was close). I understand how you are feeling. I wish I knew this back then: Things will pass. Life will not always be this way. There are people out there who love you and it would devastate them to lose you.
Truly, if this job is contributing to your current suicidal ideation, you should let it go. Focus on things that will help you heal from this and letting go of things that won’t.
I feel so, so much compassion for you only through this little website. I wish you a quick path to recovery and I hope you can get the help you need.
Truly, if this job is contributing to your current suicidal ideation, you should let it go. Focus on things that will help you heal from this and letting go of things that won’t.
I feel so, so much compassion for you only through this little website. I wish you a quick path to recovery and I hope you can get the help you need.
Throwanonyway [OP] 1 points 3y ago
Thank you. I've been hospitalized too and it fucking sucks. It did nothing for me but cost me $2,000 and make me feel like a freak.
I just can't believe that things will get better. They never have, even a little bit. My entire life has just been bad to worse with no relief whatsoever. I've been trying professional treatment even for 5 years and it's never helped.
A lot of my problems are permanent or at least really long term. I'll be in debt and have destroyed credit for probably the next 10 years. I failed and dropped out of college and will probably never be able to go back even through the Starbucks program because while I was in college I only got failing grades so no school will ever accept me.
And let me just say if I have to wait 10 years to maybe be ok then I can't and I won't. It isn't worth it to suffer for decades just to maybe live an average boring life for another few.
I've only known horrible relationships too. I'm on permanent bad terms with all family members, I have no friends at all, only romantic relationship I've been in was physically and emotionally abusive, and I
really don't believe anyone cares about me. It wouldn't matter if I took my life, at all, to anyone.
I just can't believe that things will get better. They never have, even a little bit. My entire life has just been bad to worse with no relief whatsoever. I've been trying professional treatment even for 5 years and it's never helped.
A lot of my problems are permanent or at least really long term. I'll be in debt and have destroyed credit for probably the next 10 years. I failed and dropped out of college and will probably never be able to go back even through the Starbucks program because while I was in college I only got failing grades so no school will ever accept me.
And let me just say if I have to wait 10 years to maybe be ok then I can't and I won't. It isn't worth it to suffer for decades just to maybe live an average boring life for another few.
I've only known horrible relationships too. I'm on permanent bad terms with all family members, I have no friends at all, only romantic relationship I've been in was physically and emotionally abusive, and I
really don't believe anyone cares about me. It wouldn't matter if I took my life, at all, to anyone.
dodofishman 2 points 3y ago
Hey friend SCAP and ASU actually have a program for you!! If you think you're academically inadmissible they do have the Pathway to Admissions, you take a few courses with ASU and receive support from their staff and once you're done you can apply! I'm starting ASU in the fall and everyone's been really helpful. I encourage you to check it out and get in contact with some coaches there :)
I'm sorry you've been failed so many tome. I'm having a hard time too rn and I relate to a lot of your struggles. I'll think of you today. You aren't alone!! Being working class honestly makes it harder too, we live in a capitalist society and it can make us feel very blank and unvalued based on arbitrary measurements. Life is rough out here, esp for those of us who often feel alone. I always encourage ppl to try to make friends online, especially right now! I've met some cool people in community discords and on twitter and such. Participating in hobbies and interests I enjoy make me feel more human haha. I hope you can find something you enjoy friend!!!!
I'm sorry you've been failed so many tome. I'm having a hard time too rn and I relate to a lot of your struggles. I'll think of you today. You aren't alone!! Being working class honestly makes it harder too, we live in a capitalist society and it can make us feel very blank and unvalued based on arbitrary measurements. Life is rough out here, esp for those of us who often feel alone. I always encourage ppl to try to make friends online, especially right now! I've met some cool people in community discords and on twitter and such. Participating in hobbies and interests I enjoy make me feel more human haha. I hope you can find something you enjoy friend!!!!
netocanessa 1 points 3y ago
I’m not the most qualified person to be giving advice in this area but know that you’re a valuable person and there are people who will miss you and notice your absence, not just at work but your personal life too. I don’t know what you may have going on in your personal life but I assure you it’s not worth it. This job can be crappy at times and if it is affecting you in such a negative way, then perhaps leaving it is the best option. I will say, Starbucks has some options if you need some help from a professional, Lyra, I started using it myself and has helped me with me quite a bit. :) all the best to you my friend
jofzarn2112 1 points 3y ago
Hey if you need someone to talk to, about literally anything just PM me.
Inimitable--original 1 points 3y ago
I've been there. Had almost these exact thoughts before my last suicide attempt in February. Luckily I survived but was in bad shape the next day so I did have to call in and piss eveyrone off. But things are much better now, maybe not with work, but with other things. So hang in there. And know if you aren't happy working here it's definitely okay to try something else!
Throwanonyway [OP] 1 points 3y ago
Thank you. I don't think it'll ever be better since my whole life it's only gotten worse and a lot of my problems are long term or permanent. It'd take a real miracle but I appreciate it
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