Got the text this morning that we’ll be fully open. Our store is located in one of the COVID hotspots of the world. We have a drive-through and have not closed through the entire pandemic because we’re across the street from one of the major hospitals in the city. We’ve had plenty of partners get sick already who’ve had to use their two weeks of pto, myself included. This is a shitshow waiting to happen.

I got hired on as an SSV at the end of January, and I honestly was really excited about it at first. Of course it has its downsides, but so does every job, so my outlook was really positive. Literally weeks later everything fell to shit, and I feel less and less safe every time I go in. Within the last two weeks we’ve learned that we’ll be losing about half of our staff, either to other stores for advancement or just because they’re quitting. I like to think of myself as a pretty upbeat and energetic person, but now no matter how much good energy I try to put out, the morale in the staff has just been in the gutter.

I really REALLY saw myself working long-term for this company when I first started, and I’ve already seen a lot of growth in myself, but I feel like the entire situation both within my store and the world in general is about to BLOW up. I’m starting to feel like I should get out while the gettin’s good, but I kind of have a history of not staying with one job for too long and don’t wanna let myself or my boyfriend down, or really my manager either.

Am I crazy for getting this anxious about it? Am I feeling guilt that I shouldn’t be? Am I smart or stupid for thinking about jumping ship?

(This ended up longer than expected, thanks for letting my vent ✌️)