I feel comfortable making drinks but seem to struggle with peak bar. I was trained in September but lost most of my training due to being gone for a family medical emergency following my training. This sort of ruined my training experience. I feel so bad when my shift asks me to go on bar during peak and I have to say I’m uncomfortable. I feel like if I had that much pressure on me I would cry and give up. So many people hired later than me are so fast and I just feel like I’m useless most days. It’s hard not to compare myself to other partners but I don’t feel appreciated most days.

I guess this is more of a rant and seeking advice or encouragement. College and work have really run my mental health down and I just don’t have motivation or want to do anything.