I really need to vent.

I feel like I have no respect from people I work with sometimes. So I’m soloing DT and I’m already having a day where I’m really out of it and kind of in a depressive state. I isolate myself on DT and don’t really talk to anyone except my best friend who is in another state. I’m not part of the conversation my coworkers are having even though I would like to be.

My issue is that I couldn’t get them to shut up so I can focus. I asked in the headset if they could please keep it down for a minute and I get ignored. I then get the attention of one of my shifts and ask them to lower their voices with my hand while I’m cashing out and on a call. They come over and help me which lifted some of my load and I appreciate but wasn’t what I was asking.

I feel like nobody or very few people take the need for silence or lowering their voices for 5 minutes into consideration. My shifts have a tendency to fuel this kind of behavior instead of keep it under control.

I’m not against conversations or having fun I’m really not. I like talking as much as the next person but I also need to be able to focus when necessary. I don’t want to tell them to shut up because that just makes the situation worse. I was just having a really weird sensory overload moment on top of already wanting to cry (idk why and not caused by coworkers).

I’m afraid to see one of my shifts again because we had a sit down a couple weeks ago (I’m still confused what sparked that conversation) and I ended up ashamed of myself for who knows what reason as well as in tears by the end of it. I don’t want to deal with that again.

Sometimes I think if anyone else asked them to be quiet or quiet down they’d comply but because it’s me they don’t.