So i’ve been working at Starbucks for a year and some change now. I have great knowledge on how to make drinks, how to proportion, sequencing, the whole 9. Things baristas are responsible for. I don’t want to keep rambling.
For the semester of school, my manager allowed me to work every other weekend because I have school out of state (im not far) and I didn’t want to transfer to the store closer to my school because they treated me badly. So, my manager allowed me to work every other weekend. Let me reiterate that i have knowledge of almost everything at the store.
I should emphasize that i’m *never put on bar*. Now, i feel as though it’s because i don’t “work a lot” because I’m in school, but i don’t see it as fair that Im literally always on register. Sometimes I feel like other people are favored more than me. I’ve been at this store for a solid year. I’ve formed good relationships with some of my coworkers. I’m friendly. I make a good impression. But everytime they tell me “you’re on reg,” my little heart shatters and i have the tendency to cry. I don’t care about how busy we get during peak hours, it’s the fact that i don’t think we are properly rotated.
Again, maybe it’s because i only work every other weekend. I go back to my normal hours in a couple weeks. But now I feel like my skills on bar slowed down. I have anxiety and I’m genuinely afraid to confront my SSV or SM about it without crying not being able to articulate my words properly.
What do i do? I know I have to really communicate with them, but any extra advice is surely appreciated!