Does anyone else just absolutely hate training???? I’m one of the few people at my store who is good enough on bar to train new people (even though I’m not a certified barista trainer) and I just can’t

I move fast, I cannot explain things at all, and it’s painful to stand and train for hours when I see the store in flames around us knowing I can’t jump in and help, because that results in rushing the green bean or completely pushing them off to the side while I play catch-up. I’m not someone who can teach well and so many of our green beans have a hard time learning new positions because of that. It makes me feel bad but I tell my shifts all the time to use me as the absolute last resort as a trainer, because I can’t do a good job at it, but for some reason I’m the one who has been training people every day the past week. We have 4 certified trainers who do a damn good job at teaching new beans things and yet they haven’t trained once. It’s just exhausting grrrr