disclaimer: I am NOT saying you have this, but just sharing what my personal experience was.
I have always had what I considered depression and lack of motivation. Especially when I got into the workforce, I felt exactly like you do- like, not paying as much attention, not knowing what to do, feeling like I was at the bottom of a mountain I needed to climb but had no idea how to climb it. And then, after mentioning this to my incredible LYRA therapist through starbucks, and mentioning the burnout I was feeling, she sent me a screening for inattentive ADHD. I screened as having inattentive ADHD, and I was *shocked*. I had a lot of misconceptions about ADHD as I’ve always been a straight A student, never had much hyperactivity, and just figured I was depressed. I guess lack of motivation and those feelings can be a symptom of ADHD. Again, I’m not saying you have it, rather sharing how I had no idea until 18 years old when screened so if you think it could be a possibility, that may benefit you. Even if you don’t have ADHD, I’ve found that my family and friends that use different methods of doing things that ADHD specialists recommendeds (lists of tasks, smaller tasks within a big task, writing/planning things out, taking the pressure away by making ur floor play plan in the back before you’re the shift on, etc) has helped. I think although they may be suggested to those with ADHD, everyone can benefit from that. I ended up doing that and eventually started Strattera which is an antidepressant/non stimulant that has helped a lot, and later Concerta just for my college days, and I have been feeling much less overwhelmed.

Again, I don’t mean to be insensitive or assuming/implying that you have ADHD, or anything. I just resonated what you’re saying and wanting to explain how I went through that and realized there was an underlying cause for myself personally. There is also the aspect that a lot of us find ourselves understaffed, underappreciated, and super stressed given the ongoing pandemic, the work environment, and a billion other things. I feel like a lot of us have been “go go go” since that announcement that covid hit our country (America for me, so March 2020), and haven’t gotten a breath in between, and on top of that, as the pandemic arguably gets worse, the little support we had from higher up has been disappearing. I think we all are getting burnt out- you’re not alone. If you can, take some time for yourself. Even if you can’t take time off, just, try and take care of yourself.

We’re in this together friend ❤️

I left customer service because of COVID. I work in a hospital as a patient sitter now. I work three twelve hour shifts a week. My job is basically to sit with patients who are a suicide or fall risk (mostly fall risk, older pts with dementia) and every fifteen minutes I document on a sheet what they're doing.

Hospitals are really desperate for sitters and CNAs right now. CNAs make more but have to do patient hygiene (cleaning up diapers teeth brushing etc). I interviewed two different places and the only question they asked was "why do you want to work here?"

The base pay is $12 where I work but I make $14.50 because of night Differential. They won't offer you differential if you don't ask "how much is night Differential?" If you plan to do night shift.

We are allowed to be on our phones and read books so I do my school while at work. Ultrasound techs make $70k to $80k per year and it's just a two year degree at community college. Same for x-ray tech and dental hygiene.