idk if I'm tripping or what but the tension among almost everyone at my store borders on mean high school girl bullying to the point that it brings out the worst in everyone, including myself sometimes. (add to that the possibility I might have a mood disorder, and having autism sometimes I'm not sure if there are social cues I'm missing or, on the other side of the coin, if I'm reading too much into things out of the fear of missing said cues. not an excuse for bad behavior but it definitely creates more stress for me than the average person.) two shifts in particular are constantly talking shit about each other because of some drama that went down between them. one of them (I'll call her rachel) is sarcastic, controlling, and has a reputation for being the store's "hard ass", and takes issue when people (like me) mirror back her behavior or confront it, something I don't think she's used to getting from people working under her even though a lot of people have the same takeaways about her. I've even vocalized it indirectly with my coworkers (i.e. "I feel like everyone here is constantly at each others' throats", "that didn't sound genuine") but the shifts like to sweep it under the rug with crap about how they're "just joking" and how they simply don't care who they upset when all it does is create more conflict that none of them even have the guts to confront the person they're pissed at. it's becoming draining for me, and my job is my only social outlet atm besides social media, so I tend to talk a lot and try to lighten the mood, but feel like I'm dragged down to having to mirror shitty behavior in order to protect myself from others. almost every day I have to deal with at least one backhanded comment from someone, to which I clap back against, and then get gaslighted into thinking I'm "too sensitive" or, worse, that I'm the one who started it. idk how to go about this at my work or what I'd even say to my sm, because even I was pulled aside at one point and told to "lose the attitude" which thinking about it now just meant "don't mirror or stand up against your shifts' behaviors". I feel powerless and don't wanna say anything out of fear of everyone turning against me and getting me fired, since I need the insurance in order to transition (I'm trans, hi). what do I do??

tldr: the drama (mostly girl drama) in my store is getting so bad that it's making shifts toxic and tense and I need to know 1. I'm not alone, and 2. how I should go about this or at least stick it out until my transition is finished