i was opening today, got the usual “you’re not making drinks fast enough” (which for some reason no one rewards my consistency of the drinks’ quality????), but also both my boss and the shift supervisor opening with me constantly got onto me for not having *everything* prepped even though i was struggling to get everything together fast enough (flooded with drink orders as early as 6:45am (we open at 6, start opening at 5:30), plus night crew didn’t really leave the bar in a super great condition for me to open with). the comments got so bad i raised my voice in response (something like my shift asking “why does the very berry hibiscus pitcher have an iced coffee lid on it”, me going “i don’t know, it was like that when i got here”, “well why didn’t you change it out?”, “okay well i’ve been busy with drinks so *sorry*”), and if i wasn’t on my “emergency” anxiety meds i probably would’ve broken down and/or blown up on my shift and manager. i shouldn’t need to rely on my “take as needed” medication to get through my shifts.

i have to put up with three more days of this verbal abuse before i’m actually gone. :))