I want to start this by saying I love my job most days. I really do. I love making drinks (the majority of them at least), and I love my customers (again, the vast majority), but I’m 9 months in and I’m already starting to feel so burnt out by Starbucks. From shortages of nearly every week, to just the overwhelming stress of it all, I just don’t know how much I have left in me to offer.
I’m gonna throw in a TW for this next part here, so heads up.
About two months ago I went through a major mental health crisis that resulted in hospitalization and therapy nearly every day since. For a month or so I really felt like I was getting better, but now I’m starting to feel myself spiraling out again. I don’t know if it’s from work or everything else going on (my fiancé broke up with me three days after getting out of the psych ward and called me crazy to my face), but I feel like something in me is about to give.
I don’t want to quit Starbucks because again, I still love my job, but holy shit I feel so apathetic. There are just some days that I really don’t care to put in the effort that this job requires. That, and Im honestly really starting to feel like our customers are just self entitled assholes who really don’t care about us. It’s hard to want to work, but im not in a place where quitting is the best move. I just got into the SCAP program, and I don’t want to lose out on free education.
Any advice would be appreciated.💚