I was opening with another colleague and all was well. Normally it’s two colleagues but they said it’ll be good for me to get used to mornings as it usually is.
All was well, got nice feedback, it was all good and then BAM.
20 ppl ordering drinks at once, 10 deliveries to make, food to put in the ovens, drinks to make, things to bag up, ppl asking complicated questions for no reason. It was the worst thing anyone could experience. And it was continuous.
It calmed down more a hour later when two more colleagues came in. I mixed a few drinks up, some didn’t get sent off and had to call in again, the delivery driver got rowdy. It was horrible.
Also note, it’s my first month there I’m still asking questions and the imposter syndrome is RAWWWW. It’s my second job and I genuinely like it so far. I’ve experienced school rushes that were BUSY and morning rushes but that was genuinely so bad. Even my hyper experienced colleague said that they’ve never seen it that bad before.
I left on the train almost crying and that same feeling hasn’t left.
Thinking about it makes me anxious and I feel so guilty. I feel like I let them down, I feel so embarrassed and guilty.