This is my first real job. I open at a cafe-only store. I was actively trained for a grand total of three days and then my trainer got pneumonia, and this past week has just been me and my shift opening. I am expected to set up everything on the bars and on warming by myself, and apparently this is normal. My shift is constantly at least 6 minutes late - he is currently over 20 minutes late and I am praying he doesn’t show up at all (though apparently he just overslept). I have been yelled at for not setting up the sandwiches and pastries correctly but no one has explained to me what that actually means. It has been three weeks and I haven’t been paid (though theoretically that happens today).

I have a personal policy against doing things that have made me legitimately consider trying to get hit by a car to avoid them. However, there is a notable part of me that would consider quitting a moral failure because this was something I committed to. But I think if the only reason I haven’t called out sick just to avoid having to deal with this place is that I don’t know how to do that for an opening shift, maybe I should leave.

I don’t know. We will see how today goes. I don’t think it will go well. To be honest I do not think I will make it through my whole shift, I feel fucking nauseous.