i’ve been working here for almost a year now and it hasn’t stopped tbh.. i’ve been having anxiety attacks all morning thinking about having to go in and close tonight.. I feel like a little baby but idk man this job has ruined me

you’re not a wimp at all, I’m in the same boat and about to quit asap. it’s just too stressful and really sucks if you don’t connect w/other partners bc that’s the only thing that makes this job bearable for us folks w/mental health issues :(

I’m three weeks in and basically in the same boat. In theory, it’ll get better as we get used to the place since every little task won’t seem so daunting, but who knows. Here’s hoping we both make it through this job, whether that looks like settling in better or leaving for something else.

Not a wimp whatsoever! I've been a partner for a little over 5 years and have worked in 3 different stores. I've managed to stay this long because of the perks aka Spotify premium, sick/vacation time, etc.
But, the mental and physical toll from being a Partner is no dang joke. I've had to start seeing a physical therapist and chiropractor even because of this job. Your feelings are 100% valid. I'm lucky to work at a store that I genuinely love so I'm able to work through the migraines, depression and anxiety. If you aren't liking your store, I'd consider transferring bc that's the main reason I'm still living that barista life. It's also a toxic relationship due to workplace drama, promotions, rude AF customers so just do whatever you feel is best. If financial issues are a thing, I'd stay until something better comes around so you don't have that added stress in ya life. Lastly, therapy. Seeing a therapist regularly has helped me learn a shit ton of coping mechanisms for this job which has been a lifesaver.

No. It is not worth it.

Slightly being a bit too in your head about this imo. I am sorry that you're finding it difficult though. But for many jobs you'll potentially have to work with people so you're going to need to work on that social anxiety and not run from it. I work with many people who have it but I'd never be able to tell because it's a life skill they've learned over time. This is life, use the situations you're in the build yourself up. Even when you fall down that situation may have sucked, have been the worst, but what good are you going to take out of it? I went through a year long process of being treated unfairly by my manager and that messed with my head in the moment. But after dealing with that dip I decided to turn it into my work ethic becoming better than ever cause fck that manager who put me down for nothing, I proved to myself that I can rise above the bad and better myself.
So don't let yourself get defeated by yourself. You CAN do this, you CAN learn to better handle your anxieties. You just need time and practice.
For years when I was younger I didn't want to work at Starbucks because I thought the menu was too complicated. I was so scared when I first started cause I knew nothing and was scared to many any mistake, which is silly cause of course mistakes will happen. Now I'm a coffee master and SSV. Don't be discouraged and don't let customers or partners make you feel bad or slow. You can do it!!!

It sucks here but not worse than anywhere else. Just a little different

I've been a partner for 8 years. I am a barista trainer. Whenever I bring a green bean behind the bar the first time, I make it a habit to ask all the baristas around them how long it took to feel really comfortable and knowledgeable. The answer is always 3-6 months. I do this to assure new people that we all know it's a lot of info and we all remember being there, so go easy on yourself. It helps that I have a very supportive team and we are a training store so we really try to ease people in and not scare them off.