I go back this Friday to work finally, and I have to train again. I trained one person so far, and it felt like a disaster. They did all of their modules within 30-45 minutes on their first day, and everything after that felt like a rollercoaster because it was my first-time training, and they had no foundation to go off of. I kept trying to get them to communicate with me on how they were feeling, and I just kept getting one-worded answers. Am I the issue? Then I got a sinus infection which forced me to go on COVID leave because of my symptoms, and the fact that I was taking antibiotics (I did test negative for c19, so that was a positive), so I couldn't even finish training them.

I just feel so nervous to train again, and I think I also train with them during Red Cup Day, so extra nervousness. I'm just trying to stay positive and try to get to know my trainee better this time around. Maybe that's where I went wrong? Not enough connection? I feel like I should give myself some grace since it was my first time doing it, but I can't help but feel like I wasn't good enough.

I might look up some icebreaker stuff for this time around, that way I can get to know them a bit better. I just don't want it to feel super utterly forced. Anyway, thanks for coming to my vent that was probably actually tall sized, but to me feels grande or bigger.