at my wits end, i really need advice plus a grande rant (self.starbucksbaristas)
submitted by Rain-The-Alien
i have been working at starbucks since april of this year, and its been going good till my disabilities decided to make it a living hell once training ended, this post may be everywhere so sorry if its hard to follow, if it is let me know and ill try to explain things a bit more in comments
for starters so you can get the picture, i have adhd and ptsd, as well as anxiety, and my memory has been my enemy, i dont get really any hot bar time and when i do i know nothing basically since im not doing it consistently in order to remember, im constantly having to ask repeated questions cause i cant trust my memory enough to rely on it at times, not only that i have a hard time processing things so i take a second to process, especially on hot bar ill pause till i know what i need to do next
i would get panic attacks often and meltdowns over being overwhelmed often too, which now that im medicated for my adhd is under control
only issue now? i feel like my issues have left a bad impression, i constantly feel like each time i ask a question they are looking down on me harshly, if i make a mistake im looked down upon, i could go on, and this one coworker seems like they are very annoyed with me, which is now the new thing causing me panic attacks and breakdowns because idk what i did wrong so it triggers my ptsd almost every time i see them or need to talk with them
not only that, i cant be on full time or get more hours till i can do both bars more efficiently according to my manager, but i struggle so much with hot bar because i can barely remember things consistently, as well as struggle with speed, im looking into accommodations now to see if that can help because this job i feel the safest at and really dont want to quit, theyve done a lot already to try to help but they can only do so much and i hate to ask repeated questions all the time
so now to the question:
what accommodations should i look into for adhd and ptsd that has helped you? i was thinking of making and laminating a guide to bring to help maybe but idk if that will be approved or if it will get in the way, but i know i need a visual to help me remember
and any tips you have or things youve found have helped? i want to be reliable but its hard right now with my issues, and i really need those hours