I’m playing mental gymnastics with myself right now but let me know what ya’ll think. I have worked for the bux for 5 years and my current store for over 2. I was a shift for a year and a half but stepped down because I took another, full time job. Currently working 35 hours other job and about 17-20 hours per week at sbux.

Obviously working two jobs has been extremely exhausting. Compounding this is the fact that I have adhd and anxiety so things can already be overwhelming. Since I started working two jobs I have missed (between the two jobs) a total of 3 shifts due to having the flu, 2 at sbux that I got covered and one at full time job.

This week though something changed. I did my work as per usual, worked my full time job and did my weekly sbux shifts and suddenly it felt like I had been hit by a semi truck. Friday came around, I closed my laptop for the day, and it felt like I was hit with a wall of existential dread. The dread? Having to wake up at 4am to work after an exhausting work week. This time I just completely shut down, barely moved a muscle for hours and then just tears. I cried to my bf whom I live with for several hours just like paralyzed by dread and anxiety and exhaustion.

I ended up not sleeping for even 5 minutes after that and before my open. I was still anxious and exhausted and in no shape to work. So I did what I hate doing and called in. I had also texted other partners throughout the night asking if they could extend their shift to cover. Once I called I was given the coldest response and zero empathy from my sm. This kinda hurts, but I get it i guess.

Anyways now I feel even worse bc I called in. I feel like I let my team down or could’ve done something to go about this better. I don’t even know. I would quit today if I didn’t need the money, but sadly i do